Thursday, March 17, 2011
I’ve hit a point in my lifetime now, realizing that I can’t do the same work as I use to. I hate what my body is doing to me, and it makes me hate it even more so hateful, it prevents me to even enjoy one simple damn day.
It’s like the day passes by me and I’m absolutely standing still. I’ll never understand why do I feel so extremely down (about myself) right now. I truly wish I could be able to do what I use to, then those nasty thoughts stir inside my head and reminds me how much my body hates me and continues it’s tirade against me, and my hatred for it as well.
There have been times now I feel like shutting myself away from the entire world, and battling this war against my body alone. But, I have quite a few reminders why I do not and I reflect on why I cannot work like I use to. It’s been a raging war inside of me, and I want rid of it.
My only solace lately has been my children, my husband, parents, and close friends. I certainly hope to win this war and continue onto life with a much more clearer insight and happiness (with myself).
I can imagine…I can imagine, living in a semi-desolate area with my family. Away from the course, cold, and cruel realities of the populated world. I would rather face the true aspects of nature.
I can imagine…I can imagine, stepping out unto the porch and seeing a picturesque view of the rigid cold, yet so beautiful sight of nature, beckoning me to be part of it.
One day, we will be there…one day.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
I have chosen the movie: "Seventh Moon" due to seeing the trailer for this. The origin is very fascinating to me so will be watching this with dinner. I will provide my feedback regarding this movie tomorrow.
Melissa and Yul, Americans honeymooning in China, come across the exotic 'Hungry Ghost' festival. When night falls, the couple end up in a remote village, and soon realize the legend is all too real. Plunged into an ancient custom they cannot comprehend, the couple must find a way to survive the night of the Seventh Moon.
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Lack of warmth and humility
It still has become something of somewhat stability.
Is there real love within the walls?
What refuge do we truly seek and why does it call?
The word in itself has been banned oh, so many times.
Some women making it sound like such a heinous crime
Even for stating it
Hence throwing the fits...
It is a word
And for any individual throwing a temper tantrum, that's absurd.